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[If there was one thing Takatora was sure he should have learned by now, it would be how to keep his life in perfect running order. He had been the head of Yggdrasill's Research and Development branch from the moment he'd left high school and even before that, his father had kept him on a tight and strict schedule, never a second unaccounted for or left out of place. Unfortunately, with all of Takatora's scheduling and trying to squeeze an extra hour into every day, he still felt as though he never had time for anything, let alone everything. Even his weekends left little time for himself, though Takatora was also painfully aware of his obsession with triple-checking everything under his command and bringing such weight onto himself. He couldn't allow for errors.

His morning routine started a bit later on the weekends, if only because Takatora knew he had to catch up on sleep at some point to make up for running himself ragged. Getting sick was something he couldn't risk. The usual morning routine went by quickly: dragging himself out of bed (he'd never become a morning person, as much as he wanted to), showering, getting dressed, checking for any news or alerts while he had been sleeping. Thankfully, nothing important had happened during the night. Takatora always lived with the fear of something awful happening while he was asleep that he would be unprepared for, but every morning brought the same temporary relief. For now.

Takatora headed out of his room after an hour or so, still checking his phone as he made his way down the hall and towards the stairs. Ryouma already wanted to talk to him about something, which was mildly surprising as Ryouma rarely (never) got out of bed so early, which meant he'd been up all night again. Stepping past one of the maids, Takatora spoke a return greeting to her as he continued on, paying more attention to typing out messages than his surroundings.]

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[He looked up and waved to them too, and tilted his head back to look at Kouta.]

Hm?

[Kouta pouts a little, reaching down to squeeze Micchy's shoulder.]

Tell me what's going on.

... It's really complicated.

[The smile disappears, and he closes his eyes.]

My brother hasn't been home for a while. I'm sure he's fine, but... I can't help but worry.

[... oh no.]

You haven't heard anything from him?

No. He hasn't responded to my texts or calls. Maybe he's just really busy at work - it's happened before. Or he had to go out of the country suddenly. He's... he's probably okay.

[Kouta's not feeling too great about this, squeezing Micchy's shoulder.]

Do you want to go look for him?

If he's at work I'll never get in to see him. He'd have told people not to let anyone disturb him.

Do you--

[No, no. He doesn't want to talk about that. Kouta wraps the blanket around his shoulders more, frowning.]

... I see.

He... just doesn't respond sometimes. And it makes me really worried.

Does he know you worry so much about him?

I hope he does. Lately I'm not sure.

... because you guys were fighting?

[Concerned Pseudo-Older Brother.]

Something like that, yeah.

[He reaches up to grab Kouta's arm, but then pulls back, going back to staring at his shoes.]

[Kouta notices that, moving over to drape his arms over Micchy's shoulders. He's not sure he should be doing something like this, but...]

[Oh. Well then. He wraps his arms around Kouta's and leans back.]

I understand, okay? About how you feel. I don't want my feelings to change how we are. You're still really important to me.

[... is that what this is about?]

... do you want to talk about it?

There's not really anything to talk about. I just... I know I'm young and inexperienced. I have to learn how to handle this.

[Even if it hurts, he has to keep his feelings under control. Even if the pain makes him want to both press himself against Kouta and snap him in two, he can't let it show.]

Ah... I pressed my source by the way. I couldn't find anything about Yuuya. I'll keep trying. I'll find something.

[Kouta presses his lips together at that, dragging the blanket with him as he slides down onto the floor to sit down next to Micchy.]

Handle what?

[The rest of Micchy's words make him frown, seeming a bit distant for a moment. That sounds suspicious, but... he's not sure Micchy will want to talk about it.]

Aah... .... well. Thank you.

... Never mind.

[He leans against Kouta, letting out a long breath.]

Someone has to know. I'll keep looking until I find the truth for you.

[Kouta seems to accept the research part, but he's not accepting the first part.]

Hey. Come on. ... tell me.

I mean... how I feel. It's not as if you're not my friend... it just...

[He can feel his emotions building up, enough to want to snap. But he can't. He has to stay in control.]

You're one of the first people I thought about in that way, okay? But it's not like... throughout my life I won't have it happen again. Both people who agree and people who don't.

I guess. It's really hard to control who you like. There's someone--

[... should he even say this? Would it be too much? Kouta decides to err on the side of being open and honest. It would be uncomfortable for Micchy to think he was hiding something.]

There's someone else I've liked. ... not in the way you like me, but... they're really attractive. And strong. ... and cool. But I know it wouldn't ever work out, so I'm ... I accept that.

[No, now he just feels like he's rambling without a purpose...]

I want to do what I can for you because you're important to me, Micchy.

[He nods, and lets out a breath. He doesn't know what to say to that.]

You're important to me, too. I... never want anything to happen to take away your happiness.

[Kouta hesitates for a few moments, before reaching over to rest his fingers on Micchy's face, turning the other's attention towards him.]

What would make you happy?

[... It's hard, very hard, not to shiver under the other's touch. He smiles a bit and shakes his head slightly, pressing his hand to cover Kouta's.]

What would make me happy isn't that important. I guess if it's anything, it's the rest of you being safe. I can fight. You shouldn't have to. Let me take things on for you. Please...