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呉島 貴虎 | kureshima takatora ([personal profile] heavenlydecree) wrote2015-02-01 12:56 pm

the moon is rising on this dangerous night //

[Takatora had, as usual, buried himself in work all day. He'd even stayed out far later than usual due to a few back-to-back business meetings, though he'd been kind enough to spare a few moments to let Mitsuzane know. He didn't want his younger brother to worry about where he was or why he wasn't home on time. Unfortunately, he was a bit vague with saying "probably around midnight". It had been one of those nights, meetings followed by outings and social drinking. Takatora had honestly never cared for it, but it was something he did because it made business partners happy. People talked a lot more when they had alcohol in their system as well, but Takatora had been careful to be polite in his acceptance of drinks while still going slow enough to maintain his composure. There was always the sinking concern that someone would manipulate information out of him while he was vulnerable. He couldn't allow that to happen.

By the time he returns home, it's closer to twelve-thirty. His clothing and everything about him smells of smoke and alcohol. It makes him a bit self-conscious, knowing it's completely out of character for him. He'd even, on one of his rare instances, accepted a cigarette from a colleague. It was a strange and nostalgic happening, but Takatora had thoroughly washed his mouth out afterwards. Still, the smell of smoke from that and the bar itself clung to him.

Takatora rubs at the back of his neck as he walks through the home, anxious to change out of his clothes. However, in passing Mitsuzane's door, he hesitates and then doubles back. It would be best to check on him in case he'd waited up. So he knocks, careful and light.]


Mitsuzane?
grapeeater: (the chariot.)

[personal profile] grapeeater 2015-02-01 08:58 pm (UTC)(link)
[The silence hurts. It makes him feel horribly uncomfortable. His stomach squirms, and he shifts uneasily in Takatora's grasp. He doesn't want to move away for fear of saying or doing something that would make the situation worse.]

... Let's get you in... in bed. Or something. I think we should both sleep.
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[personal profile] grapeeater 2015-02-01 09:09 pm (UTC)(link)
[He turns away, and goes to find Takatora some clothes. Once he pulls them out he leaves them on his bed and retreats from the room. He walks towards his room, before just stopping and leaning against the wall. What is he doing? What has he done?]
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[personal profile] grapeeater 2015-02-01 09:18 pm (UTC)(link)
[There's no verbal response, not at first, just a quiet sob and then a sniffle. There's a pause, and then Micchy calls out in a hoarse voice.]

Come in.

[He's changed into his nightclothes, and curled up on his bed clutching a pillow. He needs to pull himself together, but he can't help it. His hair is mussed and his cheeks are wet, and he doesn't look up at Takatora.]
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[personal profile] grapeeater 2015-02-01 09:36 pm (UTC)(link)
[He freezes like a cornered animal, and tries to compose himself. It's a few long moments before he can speak again, and even then only after he's cleared his throat.]

It's not your fault. I shouldn't have grabbed you or hit you. ... Or pushed you.

[It's his fault. He's the one who caused this. Even if Takatora grabbed him first, he should have just submitted to it. But... no. He doesn't want to submit... but he doesn't want to hurt his brother. Just... why can't he do what he wishes?]
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[personal profile] grapeeater 2015-02-01 09:45 pm (UTC)(link)
... I don't know.

[Forgiveness, for one, but he's not sure if he can accept it right now. He wants to have a chance to be his own person. To pursue his own path. To do what he wants to do, what he needs to do, rather than what he's expected to do.]

You... I don't know. I just... I'm tired of being told what to do. You always...

[Is he really going to go there? But it's not like he can do much more damage.]

... You always seem to think you know what's best for me. And sometimes you do. But sometimes you don't. I know there's things I'm expected to do, but... why can't I have interests other than those things?
grapeeater: (the magician.)

[personal profile] grapeeater 2015-02-01 09:52 pm (UTC)(link)
... That's fine.

[He doesn't really want to be that close to Takatora right now, but if he refuses he'll just hurt him more.]
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[personal profile] grapeeater 2015-02-01 10:07 pm (UTC)(link)
From what? What are you protecting me from by forcing me into subjects that I hate? I know how to study. My grades are fine.

[He bites his tongue after that outburst. Better to limit what he's saying at the moment.]
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[personal profile] grapeeater 2015-02-01 10:13 pm (UTC)(link)
Why? Why can't you tell me?

[Is it the forest? That's not what he means in this case. He can protect himself just fine from that stuff, though Takatora doesn't know that.]

Why can't I pick what I want to do?

[Maybe it makes him sound childish, but he wants to know.]
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[personal profile] grapeeater 2015-02-02 04:43 am (UTC)(link)
Why not? You can't think of any way to help anyone other than what we've been forced to do? It's not like you can't do multiple things. It's like like doing something other than business prevents you from... I don't know, donating to a charity or helping the less fortunate.

[He sits up a bit, rubbing his face. It's not like Takatora hasn't seen him crying before, and he needs to look like an equal here. Or at least more of one.]
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[personal profile] grapeeater 2015-02-14 08:37 pm (UTC)(link)
I know. But you can't work all the time. You can't use 'duty' as an excuse to forget to live. Especially not now. If you give away everything of yourself, you won't have anything left. It's not like you're less important than other people. You want to save everyone, but you're forgetting to save yourself.

[It's not like he wants other people to get hurt. Not really. But being pushed into things all the time just seems like a bad idea. It's okay to be selfish sometimes.]
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[personal profile] grapeeater 2015-02-14 08:47 pm (UTC)(link)
Then you're doing a disservice to the people who care about you. I don't want you to lose everything just to save other people.

[He reaches out to grab at Takatora's shirt, tugging at it gently.]

What about me? I don't want to lose my brother. But you're... just getting farther away.
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[personal profile] grapeeater 2015-02-14 08:53 pm (UTC)(link)
No.

[He sits up, frowning.]

I don't want you to leave me. Please don't leave. I just...

[He just what? They can't go back to being innocent brothers anymore. He lets go of his brother's shirt and looks down at him, before scooting over to give his brother a hug.]

I need you...

[It's childish, and he knows it, but the idea of losing Takatora terrifies him. As much as he might rebel against his brother... being without him is unthinkable.]

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